Goodbye May

Helllllo June! You’re one of my favorite months. My birthday, the weather, and the colors of the sky will always have me adoring you. But the start of a new month also means looking back on the past month and all the time that flies. I actually don’t understand time and I need to accept that I never will, but I also won’t accept not talking about how fast it goes. So, there’s that.

I find reflection a great place to be. Time to be thankful and have good conversations. This afternoon after church I got to chat with my dad on our front porch (one of my fav places) about things we have been learning and after we got done talking, I knew I had to write a blog. May was an awesome month so here is my reflection and what I’ll be taking with me into June:

Do things for yourself

For a lot of my life and in many different places I tend to do things for other people because I desire their affection. I want them to like me, and I want to please them with my actions. However, people’s expectations change constantly and it’s freeing to do things because you want to, and you have the power too. Today I decided to delete snapchat because I felt obligated to keep it. No one was telling me I needed too but I have wanted to delete it for a while. I was held back by thinking people would HATE, yes, HATE me if I deleted it. I thought I would have no friends, that I would not stay in touch with people, that they wouldn’t think I was cool or funny, and I also never deleted it because I was fearful of missing something. Silly me. I realized people can pick up the phone and call me if they want! If they don’t, they won’t. That doesn’t mean I’ll lose what I’m afraid to. Once you get out of the perspective keeping you aligned to thinking about what other people are thinking about, it’s easier to make choices for yourself :)

Meet New People

I got invited to a bible study this summer with new people and at first, I was hesitant to go because in all honesty I wanted to deviate to hanging out with the people I already knew from home. After coming home from college, I had this view that I already met so many people at school, why would I need to meet new people at home? I went anyway and you probably guessed. It was so. good. The people I’ve met are lovely and I’m already so thankful for them. It never hurts to meet new people and invest in them. Life is too short for us to be secluded and comfortable with who we’re around.

The 500

How did I go 18 years of my life living in Indiana and never going to the Indy 500? I had chills when the cars came around the track for the first time, and I felt so American, like pump that feeling into my veins. Please. I will be returning. If you ever get a chance, hit the speedway upppp.

Cherishing

The neighbors that have lived in the house right across the street from me moved out yesterday because their property is getting taken back by its owners. Kinda sad about it. I don’t like turning into my drive knowing they don’t live there, and their American flag isn’t waving in the wind anymore. They were there when my family and I first moved into our house and they have been so kind. My dad told me today he took them for granted. This made me think of the friend I lost back in March and how I took for granted him always just being here. I believe cherishing the things we have while they’re here is important, and something I frequently think about. It’s just a matter of time before the things we think will always go unchanged, change. Things not going ‘according to plan’ or changing isn’t inherently bad, but when it happens, that reminds us not to take the smallest of things for granted.

Months feel short, but years are long. May was sweet, but June makes me excited for trips to the lake, green grass, evening kickball, ice cream runs, sunburns, windows down, and campfires. Your June might look different than mine, but I hope yours is a wholesome one.

Best,

Meg